My life is basically made up of three major sections; the professional, the personal and the spiritual. They aren’t always working together or even in equal thirds. To be honest I’m not sure I’ll ever get them balanced out effectively. Circumstances like time,distance and myriad other factors always seem to work against me. If you’re asking why that matters I’ll tell you. I think this ‘Trifecta’ is what we have to master and balance in order to truly be happy in life.

I feel like I have finally turned a corner in my personal life. I’ve met an awesome woman I have a ton of interest in. Surprisingly that feeling is being reciprocated. It’s taken me forever to feel like I want to try and even entertain the idea of a dating again. But for some reason it just feels right. And I know it’s okay to roll with this feeling. So the balance has switched towards the personal and I’m stoked about how things are going.

But professionally I feel more and more disillusioned with every passing minute. Every day I feel less like I’m in the right place. I suppose that was always a possibility with learning a new career, especially now that I’m getting more into the heart and soul of medicine. It’s one thing to see it on television. As I learned this week it’s entirely different to be there in person. So while I take two steps forward personally, I feel like I’m taking one back professionally.

Maybe the key to figuring all this out lies in the corner of the triangle I pay the least amount of attention to. I know religion and spirituality are incredibly important in life. Oddly I find it’s also the easiest part of my life to blow off. There’s always an excuse for missing church, or not meditating, or whatever the case may be. Maybe spirituality is the Rosetta Stone for finding contentment in those other areas of your life. Perhaps my focus has been wrong all along. If I put my faith at the forefront maybe things will automatically balance themselves out. I hope so. I’m tired of feeling like my life is a game of Marble Madness, constantly tilting and shifting. I’m ready to beat that game for good.

If you have found that balance in your life I’d love to hear from you. Let me know about your Rosetta Stone or experiences. I always learn so much from the comments, email and responses I receive. As always, thanks for dropping by. Be real, be true and be good.

There’s a never ending battle going on in my life; it’s between my heart and my head. The Battle of The Lonely Life – and believe me when I say there have been casualties. Years after my divorce I am still damaged goods; I still have parts that are broken. It’s funny how in trying to fix myself I broke parts of others. Make no sense? It will…

I’m sure it’s a battle that many people that are divorced fight. First and foremost am I ready to date? Am I ready to make a commitment to something serious? The answer is no. In fact I’m not sure I ever want a serious relationship again. Or at least that’s what I tell the masses that check on me. That’s what my head wants me to do. It’s logical to think that if you’ve tried something and it hurt, not to try it again. But the idea of being eternally single scares the hell out of me. I don’t want to live out my life alone and die lonely.

So is it possible to live your life single and not be lonely? My heart says, “Nope – you’d better try again.” So I tried dating and all it did was make me feel horrible about stringing someone along that I had no real long term plans with. That’s not fair to them. But that’s not something you tell someone early in a relationship. If you do you sound like a ‘playboy.’ If you don’t and things progress it seems like you lied just to get in their pants. So where is that happy middle ground? Does such a place even exist?

I hope it’s possible to be a bachelor and still have meaningful relationships. I’m not aiming for celibacy or being that guy who sits in the matinee movie alone, but I also don’t want the full blown married life with all that drama either. I have tried that, and it doesn’t work for me.

But most of all, I don’t want to keep hurting people. I’ve done enough of that in my life. Is it possible to have my cake and eat it too? I’m not sure – but I won’t give up the trying. Forward march – the battle rages onward.